Dear Angels,
"Where can I go?  What can I do to find a job? I used to live in VA where I sold my own inspirational artwork and did custom framing. Here I have held various teaching jobs both part and full time. I think my strengths are in the art field, or else with children.

No job has even felt right.  I am now unemployed and without inspiration.  I would like to do something that aligns with my life purpose and of course utilizes my talents and abilities.  I am open to something completely new. "  Catherine, Santa Fe, NM

Dear Catherine,
The malaise of feeling stuck with nothing moving is in the air. It's what I call the pre-enlightenment energy. 'I've done all this work on myself, so why am I here of all places?"   Your Angels find this amusing.  The word is to do your best, stay put or move on, but don't push yourself.  As with all things, one of these days, the fog will clear and you will know what is right, which path to take, and which action is forward.  Today is not the day yet.

What I see about you is you are a spiritual dynamo.  You are a bright light in the fog of life, but today, you need to shine your light on yourself.  You're feeling sad, maybe even a little depressed and you're afraid to begin anything for fear of making the wrong decision.  "Again," your mind says.

You're concerned that you, Miss Invincibility, is losing her passion.  Not only that, but it's so unfair.  The challenge is to know that you are a master of balance, in spite of appearances to the contrary today.  Perhaps you are being offered the opportunity to balance your work life with your play life, your mind and your heart.  You are an exceptional person.  The trick now is to allow yourself to trust that who you are and how you live your life, will come back into harmony.  Do your best not to resist this quiet space.  Do anything with kids and art that comes your way to feed and house yourself. Be open with all your intuitive sensibilities, to accepting where you are today, while opening to something more exciting and fun for you.

Notice if it is possible that this is a time of the seesaw?  The time of trying out how it feels to live in someone else's shoes? This place of indecision, so difficult for us all, is the time where we learn to surrender our will and ask for guidance. Not from me, but rather the Source of All that Is.  It's the time when we learn who we really are underneath our education and good looks. 

As for today, have you tried putting a flier up to offer art classes for kids for the summer? Or a blog offering your services to tutor or teach the creative freedom of art to kids who are crammed into a tiny space and told this is their life?  You have an exuberance that wants to be shared that children as well as adults need to experience. 
 


Comments

Catherine

Wed, 30 Jun 2010 15:31:02


Suzy, thanks for your reply. I'm glad the angels are amused. Like you said, its a hard place to be, and it feels like I've been in it too long. I have been trying lately to practice non-resistance and to surrender to a higher will and to ask for guidance while at the same time taking action. It looks like I will have to continue in the same vein and expect the best. Pre-enlightenment, that sounds good, post-enlghtenment would be even better!!
Love, Catherine

 

Wed, 30 Jun 2010 16:38:02

My thoughts exactly. Most of the very spiritual women I know are exactly where you are. It seems like it is time for us to move "forward," wherever that is. I know though, that there are many of us holding the space for others to catch up and for us to get it as well, since there are many who hold the space for us. It's a ladder of progression.

 



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