Dear Angels,
"I would like to ask my angels if I will ever feel happy and content in my marriage?"  Noreen, Bexhill on Sea, E. Sussex

Dear Noreen,
At a high enough level of consciousness, we can create a form of happiness by leaving our bodies on the outside and finding the God within.  Like the prisoner in a camp where he is abused daily, half starved, and beaten, who manages to be released well into old age, physically debilitated but choosing to live in a state of peace.

You are not imprisoned physically, you only feel like you are.  What I see is that you are emotionally upended.  You have chosen to ignore what your inner wisdom tells you.  Instead you have lost your will, your sense of security and confidence in your own abilities. You no longer believe in yourself. You are feeling insecure and  unable to stand on your own. 

Noreen, you are allowing your husband to dump his anger onto you and then assume that he is finished, you can handle it, and begin a new day. Only each day builds on the one before.  You seem stuck, at an impasse that you are unwilling to change.

Your challenge is to realize that this relationship has separated you from not just the people who love you, but from your belief system.  You are a deeply spiritual woman who is not allowing herself to see the truth.  It is time to begin again. To let go, to relax your mind's worries about how you will create enough money to live, and trust that as you allow yourself to move forward without your husband, you will find the joy that eludes you now.

Your Angels are not telling you to divorce.  They are telling you to listen up. Living in a body is about living in joy if you allow yourself to live in love. If you are living in agony, how does that serve God?  It is your job in a body to share happiness not misery.
 


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Noreen

Sat, 20 Feb 2010 06:11:32


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Noreen


Hi Susi,

I would like to say a very big thank you to you for my reading. You and my angels are so right. I am feeling very trapped, my confidence is low and I do not know what to do. I have an idea of what to do but I am too afraid to do it, because I am scared of hurting and upsetting people.

My husband can be very moody and grumpy at times. This makes me feel like I am more his child than his wife - you were very right there. He likes to have lots of little digs at me all the time, and this is slowly chipping away at my love for him. I have gone right off sex and feel physically sick when we make love. I do love him and he is a wonderful husband and father, it's just I love him as a best friend and not in the way a wife should love a husband.

I used to love him but he has chipped away at that love. I feel angry at myself for feeling the way I do. I try so hard to love him again but he does not make it easy. Just as things seem to be going well and I can feel some affection and love creeping back, he gets all grumpy again and that chips away at things again - leaving me feeling depressed.

I am still a little confused as to what to do as my angels say I should not diverse my husband. Does that mean that I should stay with him but just try and live my own life?

Thank you again for all your support and advice. I appreciate your time and kindness.

Love,

Noreen x

 

Noreen

Sat, 20 Feb 2010 06:22:20

Thank you again Susi, you have a beautiful spirit. x

 

Sat, 20 Feb 2010 06:39:23

Sat, 20 Feb 2010 06:34:52

Hi Noreen,
Your Angels are not saying to divorce your husband or not to. They are saying you are not seeing your life clearly.

You are living with a man who is clearly abusive to you. Every year you continue with him, there is less of you. He chips away at your self esteem. You are disappearing.

As I look at your energy field, you appear to be holding yourself tightly. The normal anger that emerges from his behavior, is absorbed by your body. You can pretend that it is not there, but of course it is. Your body can only carry this energy in one of three ways, and sometimes we need all at once!

One way is to let your anger out through yelling back. Another way is to work it out through physical work or exercise, although the seeds of injustice remain and reactivate. A superior way is getting psychological support pronto so you begin to value yourself once again.

What often happens to the abused is that we internalize this anger and begin to believe that we deserve it.
This is breeding ground for depression, which is anger directed inward.

Depression immobilizes us and leads into illness and misery. No child of God deserves this.

Honor yourself as you honor others.

 

Noreen

Sun, 21 Feb 2010 07:21:48

Thank you Suzy for your reply and for the messages that you have passed onto me. You have helped me more than you know. It means so much to me to know that I am not alone and that there are others out there who care.

Thank you again for your help and guidance and I hope you have a wonderful evening.

Love Noreen x

 



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